Sunday, January 30, 2011

Shipwrecked in the Bering Sea

The Bering Sea was unusually void of wind and wave. Under the spell our boat rocked gently upon the glassy waters as we lay on anchor off the rocks of Right Hand Point.  The anchor chain made its presence known by occasionally coming up against the aluminum hull and birds of countless numbers and species contributed their songs to the peaceful afternoon.  Glen and I with our shirts off lay on the deck reading while trying to benefit from the unusually warm sunny day.  All of our preparations for the fishing season had been completed, and we were on anchor waiting for an announcement from the Fish and Game, as to when the herring season would open up.  The radio had been silent for a few days and so with nothing else to do, we waited.
It seemed waiting was all we had been doing for weeks.  First, when we had arrived at the boat yard in King Salmon towards the end of April, waiting three weeks for the river ice to break up so we could put our boat in the river.  We had waited in the river for two days, for the tides to be right, so we could head out the Nakanek and waited another two tide cycles for enough water to lift us off a rock we had parked our boat on; which of course, was not on any charts that we could find.  While anchored out in Kvichak Bay in the Ships Channel we waited for our oldest brother, Richard, who’s newly built Marco gillnetter was suppose to arrive on a barge from San Diego, California.  Getting word that the barge was delayed, we prepared to pull anchor and start the 20 hour run to Togiak, but hearing on the radio that a storm was brewing, we waited some more.  Three days later, seeing a clear window of weather, we headed out of Kvichak Bay heading towards Cape Constantine.  Arriving that next morning at Right Hand Point, we set anchor to wait for our brother and his new boat to arrive.  His boat had all our summer provisions on board that we had stowed prior to it being shipped north.  So now we sat on anchor waiting for food, for a fish opening - for something to happen.
Hours stretched into days and our food was all but gone, except for a small sack of pancake mix and a salt and pepper shaker.  It was decided to pull anchor and head over to the large processing ship, Alaska Star, which was anchored a few miles away out in front of Crescent Bay.  We figured we had enough money to buy a few groceries from the ship store, to tide us over till my brother Dick arrived with our provisions.  After using the shower facilities, we grabbed our small sack of groceries and headed back to our gillnetter tied up alongside the ship. While I was handing the food across the gap between the boats to Glen, both he and I heard the announcement over the deck speaker that the Fish and Game were giving the fisherman an opening at 6 am the following morning.  “Finally” I exclaimed as I jumped across to our boat.  Glen grabbed my hand to steady my landing and added his own version of excitement with a broad grin.  “No more sitting around!”
Morning came early with us positioned to set our gear 2 hours prior to the 6 am opening.  In studying the bottom charts, it was determined that we should set our sunken gillnets just south of Right Hand Point in about 50 feet of water.  Anchored at both ends with 75 pound anchors and connected with buoy lines to the surface buoys, the nets rested on the bottom weighted down by a lead line and having a special cork line that stretched the gillnet up off the bottom.  As herring made their way to spawn their eggs on the rocks, our nets would hopefully intercept them prior to them completing their instinctive run to their spawning grounds.
The herring fishery in the Bering Sea was mostly harvesting herring roe to be sold to the Japanese market.  There was a demand for a high roe count up over 12 and it was always a question wither a fisherman’s catch would be accepted by the buyers.  On our first day of fishing we brought in over 6 tons of herring that could not produce a roe count of over 10, so the buyer offered to pump them overboard for us.  The herring were large with some weighing over 2 pounds and I thought we could pickle them or save them in some other way, but with no market to sell them and no other way to dispose of them, we reluctantly allowed the processor crew to pump them overboard for us.  I was not happy about this waste, to say the least.
The Fish and Game kept the fishery open for the next couple of days, but we could not find a consistent roe count higher than 11.  Making trips back and forth from our gear to the processor, we sold 7 ton and they kindly pumped overboard 37 ton.  The previous year gillnetters were paid as much as eight-hundred dollars a ton and the roe count averaged up over 14.  On the third day of fishing, the officials shut the fishery down due to the tremendous waste of resource.  Everyone, including the Alaska Department of Fish & Game, the seiners, the gillnetters and the buyers were not pleased with the sickening sight of fish being pumped overboard.  That third night, not saying much, Glen and I anchored the boat off Right Hand Point and hit the bunks with heavy hearts.  The splendor of the calm seas and a sunset that would bring tears to the most calloused soul was lost to most that evening.  If the visual show would have registered through my heavy heart, I would have surely given thanks for it.
In the early morning dark, we were woken by a crash that brought us up out of our bunks in an instant.  We were met with high seas that were unimaginable.  The white water and wind made our world hell and fear threatened to paralyze us.  Weeks later we found out that a freak local storm developed over the area and maintained winds in excess of 104 miles per hour with gusts up over 114 miles per hour for three days.
“You’re on the rocks!”  Glen screamed from the back deck.  I could not hear most of what he was yelling at me, as most of it was lost in the wind.  I looked over starboard and saw green water against the house windows.  I had to get off the rocks somehow, praying, “Lord, get us off..,” Glen yelled something else and I lost sight of him under a wall of water across the deck.  I floored the engine and could hear the jet impellor cavitate – grabbing air instead of water, which was a bad thing.  It was like spinning your tires in the snow.  No traction, but in this case-no thrust.  “Go, go, GO-O-O!” I could hear Glen clearly that time.  He must have come up for air after that last wave.  The next thing he screamed sent a terror through my heart. “I’m going to push off the rock!” and he went over the stern of the boat! 
The boat we were fishing was a Bristol Bay gillnetter named the Tern.  All gillnetters in the Bay are limited to 32 feet and most of the newly built boats, such as this fishing vessel, were built out of aluminum.  We thought of them as tin cans as they were tough and could bounce off a sand bar or rock and survive.  Most of them that were lost sank due to a fire or swamping.  I had not heard of any Bay boats being lost by a breach to the hull.  I could believe that this time would be different.
When Glen went over the stern, I knew he was gone.  But, emerging out of the receding wall of water in the grey light, I saw his head appear and then heard him yell, “G-“cough, “G-O-O!” as I saw him pushing against the stern from the black rock towering above.  I had the controls pegged and prayed that the impellor would grab some water this time.  I felt the boat give a larch and shoot off the rocks into the high seas.  I turned just in time to see Glen disappear under another wall of water and thought for a second to turn the boat around and try to retrieve him.  Impossible!  I saw the mother of all waves raise 30 feet up, curling down upon me.  I had already turned into it, but to no avail, as the steepness of the wave kept my boat broadside running along the base of it.  It slowly rolled the Tern on its starboard side with green water visible in the windows.  I expected the boat to capsize as it came closer to the shore, but it somehow slowly started to right itself as it rode the wave higher and higher up onto the beach.  As choreographed as any miracle can be, the wave deposited the boat upright on an even keel 20 feet above the high tide mark.  I sat in the pilot chair for several minutes gripping the steering wheel in a death grip, unwilling or unable to let go. 
The fog cleared from my brain and I remembered Glen.  “Glen!” I screamed and jumped from the cabin onto the deck.  Searching the surf and not seeing him, I jumped from the deck to the tundra below and ran towards the beach.  As I ran down the beach I suddenly saw Glen come out of the waves and be deposited on all fours on dry sand.  Coughing out salt water with his head down, he came out of it quickly to manage to scream at me, “Why didn’t you keep going?!”  “You could have made it!” Running, I came up on him fast and grabbing him, I asked, “Are you ok? I couldn’t go out.., the wave caught me” as I gestured at the sea. Getting to his feet slowly, he and I stood with our backs against the wind looking up at the boat for several minutes.  The storm did not send another wave to touch the boat after the one that deposited it high above the beach. Looking around, we realized that we were thrown up on the only 70 yard stretch of sand dwarfed by several miles of 200 foot high cliffs jutting up out of the angry sea.  We watched the storm rage for three days from the safety of the beach while the fleet and large ships battled to survive.  There were 3 ships lost, 47 gillnetters either sunk or beached and several airplanes destroyed. While we were fairly rested by the third day, about two thousand others were exhausted from the thrashing they received.
Little did we know that our shipwreck was the beginning of a long and relentless fight to survive.

Something was wrong with the charging system and the large cat batteries were dead.  After the initial shock of our being violently turned out of the sea, Glen and I climbed aboard our boat and took stock of our predicament.  Surprisingly, there was no damage to the hull or the jet drive system under the stern. The two by three foot intake grill on the bottom of the hull was clear and void of any damage. I tried to put a call out on the VHF radio to our seiner friends, but it had no power.  “The radio is dead” I said to Glen and he replied, “No wonders after all that water flying about, what now?”  I turned my head taking in all the electronics configured in a cockpit like setting. It was more than likely a few fuses needed changed out and all the equipment needed flushed with electrical cleaner.  Fortunately I had several spray cans of those. “Everything needs dried out and checked and.., oh, and check out the batteries.”  We both went at it and were occasionally reminded that a storm still raged outside by the sounds and the buffeting of the wind against the boat.
Hours later and into the night, we were still trouble shooting the electrical system.  The two VHF radios had been disassembled, sprayed, cleaned and reassembled.  The same had been done to the sideband radio, radar, bottom graph and depth sounder.  Although the stereo sound system was not critical for operating the boat or for life safety issues, it was a morale booster, so Glen and I spent time affectionately cleaning and drying it out. 
Days later, sticking his head up out of the engine compartment, my brother showed his frustration.  “Jerry, we’ve been at this for…” He paused.  We both were losing track of time.  “Does the meter show a voltage increase?”  Initially showing an 11 volt charge, we had managed to bring it up a quarter volt.  Finding that the alternator was working, but there was not enough power to start the engine to charge the batteries to transmit on the radios, I had suggested we carve a pulley out of beach wood and hand crank the alternator to charge it.  My brother and I had been taking turns for most the day, spinning the drift wood pulley and our hands were bloodied by the effort. The problem was we could not spin the pulley fast enough for the alternator to kick out enough of a positive charge, so by the third day of doing this we gave up on this endeavor.
By the second week after the storm we realized that things were not looking good for us.  Climbing up the ravine directly behind the boat to survey the sea from atop the high cliffs, we could see that the ships and the fishing fleet were gone.  With the closing of the herring season there was no reason for any of the boats to remain in the area. 
Everyone was already turning their attentions to the salmon season ready to explode upon the Bristol Bay headwaters. The majority of the drift gillnet fleet would be arriving to the Bay in the next seven days.  Coming from around the world, the fisherman were a traditional diverse crowd whose families most often had fished here for many generations. Many ethnic groups held close to their own and did not associate with other fisherman.  There were the Russians, the Italians and the native Alaskans.  A young independent group consisting of doctors, lawyers, accountants and an assortment of businessmen also came to fish the bay.  Few lived here in the sparsely populated villages year round so they arrived by large passenger jet to Dillingham and King Salmon from places like Anchorage, Seattle, Portland, San Francisco, Los Angeles, San Diego and abroad.  From there they would fly out on local charter planes to remote villages with names like Togiak, Kvichak, North or South Nakanek, Nushagak, Pilot Point, Egegik and Ugashik, whose populations would swell from a few people to hundreds or even thousands.  It was said that for every pilot that flew in the military over two hundred ground personal supported them and it was similar here in the bay for the fishermen.  Hundreds of shore base and off shore facilities would man up over night to participate in the fisheries.  But the increase of the fishing fleet did not help us; fore we were located 20 hours by boat to the West and in an area where drifters did not fish.
Being resigned that no one was going to find us, we set to work on moving the boat.  As a boy I had read the novel Sitka, written by Louis L’Amour, where a trapped American fur trader had been aided by a local native village, to ferry his vessel upon logs across a stretch of land in order to escape from a Russian Imperial war ship.  I figured we could use the same idea and hopefully with the help of anyone who ventured by.  It would have been an impossible task except for the fact that the boat for no known reason to Glen and me had two come-a-long hoists on board. We fastened these to ropes that we had doubled up and attached from the forward cleats to rocks out in the surf both to our starboard and port.  We spent several days putting down beach logs, digging under the twin keels every couple feet and greasing the contact points with rotten herring we had gathered up from the beach.  Our first efforts were wrought with ropes snapping and stretching to become useless, but by trial and error we were eventually rewarded with seeing the boat move.  I leaned all my weight into the arm of the hoist this time and Glen did the same on his side.  The ropes were holding now and with our final pull the tundra relinquished her grip on the boat and it slid toward the beach several inches.  “Yah!” I yelled out and Glen echoing “It’s working!”  We both cranked the hoists a couple more turns to see the boat advance yet again!  Given new hope, we put our energy into several more days of moving the boat from 20 feet above the high tide line to easing her over a 5 foot cut bank to the beach below.  The cut bank was where the high tides ate at the edge of the tundra. “Do you think the drop is too high?” Glen thought the boat could be damaged by the bow hitting the gravel beach.  I looked up at the boat towering above us, perched precariously on the brink of the cut bank.  “She weights fourteen ton so should crush the edge and ease down when she goes.” “The beach is soft too, so I say we give it a go.”  Glen wasn’t so sure.  With no other options, we turned to the hoists and brought her forward till she started to tip over the edge.  Stepping back quickly, we watched as the Tern eased over the edge, crushing it and the bow coming to a sliding stop on the beach below.  We stood back and laughed.  “Nice” Glen growled.  Whereas before we were blessed with a boat on an even keel, now with the bow down on the gravel and the stern caught up on the tundra, it would be very uncomfortable at a 40 degree pitch.
The small sack of pancake mix was long gone and we were hungry.  The work on moving the boat and taking short hikes up on the tundra back beyond the cliffs was exhausting.  As one day slipped into another, we found ourselves taking longer and longer naps.  Water was no problem as we had a small creek coming down through a gap in the cliffs behind where we were beached.  It was cold, clear and tasted good, but we needed food.  People, who survived out in the wilderness did so by eating anything that could be considered food in the loose meaning of the word and they were not too picky.  We, on the other hand, still had some sense of delicacy and where not mentally prepared to eat things of questionable condition.  In the first week after the storm, we tried herring that were washing up on the beach, but they were bloated and rotten.  Also, we spent a lot of energy gathering Cormorant eggs from their nests on the cliffs, only to decide that we were not starving enough to eat them.  Glen would lower me over the cliff with a rope and I would carefully take eggs and put them in my nap sack.  Then I would yell out to him to pull and I would be pulled up to the safety of the tundra above.  It was difficult especially for Glen and we stopped doing it after he almost did not have strength enough to retrieve me. “Up, I said up” I screamed louder.  “I can’t..,” I heard a determined grunt and felt myself drop a few inches down. What! Swallowing the fear I steadied my voice, “Hey, you can do it! Up, UP” and seeing myself rise a foot I was able to grab the top of the rocks and scramble up and over the edge.  With both him and I lying on our backs breathing hard, I managed to softly say “Let’s not do that again, ok?”  He agreed.
The first eggs we gathered from the cliffs did not seem right.  They cracked and looked normal, but when they hit the hot frying pan, the whites would stay clear and bubble like corn syrup.  While standing over the pan in anticipation of a emanate feast, barely able to contain our drool, we would be overcome by a foul nauseating smell driving us from the cabin to retreat to the back deck. Figuring that we must have accidentally plucked some rotten eggs from an abandoned nest, we tried several times to find fresher ones.  After the third attempt of repeating the process and coming up with the same results, we gladly agreed to abandon the eggs as a possible food source.
On one of our food finding hikes across the tundra, we startled a Ptarmigan into flight.  They are small chicken-like birds which live year round in the northern lands, and are found most commonly on tundra hiding in rocks or bushes.  “You’re the better shot with a shotgun,” I told Glen as we retrieved my Thompson Contender from the boat.  It was not a shotgun, but had a 45 colt 14 inch bull barrel that would shoot 410 shotgun shells.  I only had one shell left.  “Don’t miss” I said as I handed him the hand gun.  After chasing that stupid bird all over the place for two days, Glen did finally get a shot off, but sadly for our bellies, he missed.
And then we discovered we had a neighbor in our midst.  Slowly making our way back to the boat one day, we saw the arctic ground squirrel standing prone above his den.  When he saw us, he darted down his hole and was gone.  This time, considering myself to be the best pistol shot, I offered to be the shooter.  The Thompson Contender being out of ammo left me with only my 22 caliber pistol.  I only had one shell left.  “Don’t miss” my brother said as we settled down to wait.  Our strength was gone, so waiting for the varmint to show itself for the next two days did not seem like such a hardship, as we took frequent naps and enjoyed the warmth of the sun.  By the end of the second day of our epic rodent hunt, the critter came up out of his hole slowly with his nose sniffing this way and that for any potential danger.  From ten yards away I drew a bead on him and his image seemed to morph into the shape of a hearty steak.  Shaking the illusion off, I steadied the pistol and slowly pulled the trigger.  With the explosion out of the barrel of the gun, I lost sight of dinner. 
“You got him” Glen yelled, jumping up and running to the hole.  The ground squirrel when hit had jumped back down the entry to its den.  “You did hit him and he has to be close to the surface” my brother assured me, as we both started to dig.  Our hands were not in too good of shape.  With skinning our knuckles trying to charge the boat batteries, climbing the cliffs for eggs and the days of cranking on the come-a-longs our hands were beat up and sore.  With our prize so near, despite the condition of our hands, we went at it and gained considerable progress.  Several hours later, we were rewarded by our efforts and returned to the boat in victory. 
I have had many great meals over the years, but none compare to the memory of eating that little squirrel that gave up his life for our benefit.  That night, with our stomachs feeling stuffed as never before, Glen with a smile said “I wonder what the President ate for dinner?” Meaning that our meal was grander and more delicious than anything he could have eaten that night.  For the next two days we boiled the bones into a broth, until they were reduced to stark white remnants unable to give out any more flavor.  Reluctantly, we then threw them out. 
A few days later the benefits from our rodent meal were long gone and we were weak.  We felt not just good, but great after a long sleep or a nap, but that feeling would soon be replaced by a need to sit down and rest after an hour or two.  We were now willing to eat anything if we could find it, but because of our weakness our excursions were becoming shorter and shorter.  I had read that before the government had stopped the Alaskan nomads from following their food sources, and had set them up in established villages so that their children could be in school, some of the tribes when food became scarce, would just perish due to starvation.  Glen and I talked about this and understood that this could happen to us.  Although the fish and game was plentiful, it required one to be healthy and resourceful to go out and catch it.  We were young and had only a limited amount of knowledge and experience to aid in our survival.
Twenty-one days after being shipwrecked and having nothing to eat but an Arctic ground squirrel, my brother and I slept under the afternoon sun.  The boat’s stern had been pulled off the tundra, so that the Tern now completely rested on the beach with its bow nearly touching the surf at high tide.  Being much more comfortable now with the lessened pitch of the boat, we spent most of our time onboard cranking away at the alternator pulley.  Rather than periodically trying to call out on the radio, we decided to trust the meters and keep cranking till a good charge was indicated.
Glen lifted his head from where he was laying down, “Do you hear that?” I turned to see him tilting his head towards the sea, listening.  “No.., yes, I hear it!”  We both jumped up and peered through the wheel house windows and saw it at the same time.  “A skiff!” we both exclaimed simultaneously.  Moving faster than we had moved for weeks, we scrambled off the boat and stood at the water’s edge, waiting for the fast approaching skiff to arrive.  We could tell that it was a seiner’s skiff, but it was still far enough out that we did not recognize who was at the controls.  The surf was heavy so we knew that the skiff would not be able to reach shore.  The wait seemed very long to us, but we were beyond excitement and never moved from where we were standing.  As the skiff slowed down out beyond the breakers we now knew what we had suspected earlier.  It was our friend’s skiff from the seiner Debbie Jean and they had been searching for us for weeks. 
Both we and the skiff operator yelled back and forth greetings, with wide grins on our faces.  After letting the crew member, Joe, know that we were ok, but extremely hungry; he relayed our location and condition back to the Debbie Jean on his VHF radio.  We said our goodbyes and the skiff headed off into the distance.  Standing there in the afternoon sun, dwarfed by the black cliffs that held us captive, we could not speak but watched as the skiff disappeared out on the horizon.  We were thinking the same thing.  “Will they be back?”
Hours later the Debbie Jean arrived with the skiff hanging off the stern.  We could see someone getting into the skiff and releasing the lines.  Moments later, the small craft approached the surf and Joe threw a blue bucket with a rope attached into the water.  The surf caught the bucket and washed it in towards shore.  I waded out into the surf and retrieved it and came back in to where Glen was standing.  We were excited to see what the contents of the bucket held, so did not waste any time peeling the lid off.  Standing there and looking down into the bucket we saw what our next meal would be.  A large can of chili!  We would have run back to the boat to prepare the food, if we had the strength.
With no food our stomachs had shrunk and we knew that we would have to go easy on the chili.  With no more than a quarter of the can’s contents devoured we lay there stuffed beyond our imaginations.  Later, with Joe relaying information back and forth between the Debbie Jean and us, it was decided that we would wait for morning to try to get the Tern off the beach.  I think they realized that Glen and I needed time to digest the chili. On a minor note, Glen was a chubby young lad until our beaching and to this day he has remained skinny.
In preparation of the day when our boat would be pulled off the beach, we had already rigged some lines on the bow with two attached buoys.  Early in the morning my brother and I were already at work stretching the lines off the bow and getting ready to throw the buoys out into the surf.
“The surf’s down a little,” I said, as Glen and I held lines in our hands waiting for the approaching skiff.  “He’s going to have to come in past the outer breakers” Glen observed.  Twenty minutes later the skiff had managed to snag the lines and bring them out to the waiting seiner.
With the lines attached to the stern of the Debbie Jean, there was nothing left to do but give her a try.  “Go!” I yelled as Glen and I waved our arms toward the sea.  The ropes tightened and began to stretch.  First one broke with a loud snap and another began to fail.  The seiner backed off and maneuvered its stern closer to shore as Joe and us restrung lines back into place.  This time we doubled up the lines to consist of six five-eighths polypropylene ropes.   Some fishermen referred to these ropes as ‘crab lines’.  Not the best for pulling a boat off the beach, but they were all we had.  Giving the Debbie Jean a signal to pull again, we stepped back onto the stern to hide from any snapping lines.  The lines stretched tight out across the surf and this time they held.  With a jerking motion felt under our feet, the Tern began to slide into the sea. When the skipper, Dan, saw that we were moving, he added more power to the Debbie Jean’s engines and our boat took off out through the surf and into deep water.
The seiner skiff came up along our port side after all the tow lines had been released and put onboard.  Joe could not contain the grin from spilling across his seasoned face. “You guys are lucky; we were just about ready to stop searching for you.”  Securing lines he handed me, to the mid cleat, I disagreed.  “Not lucky – just blessed to have good friends.” 
It was just a few minutes longer and Joe used his skiff to bring our boat alongside the Debbie Jean where Dan and the rest of his crew were waiting to tie us up.  I stepped across to Dan’s boat and gripping his hand, I thanked him profusely.
On anchor that night with Glen and me enjoying the company and food of our friends, I thanked the Lord for our rescue.  Although it has been a life time since my brother and I were shipwrecked, the experience and the lessons learned have never been forgotten.  My faith in the Lords provisions and protection on my family grew from those days I spent on a remote lonely beach and recognized that I was in His hands.  When our strength failed, He was there to pick us up.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Leave the Monster at Work

We guys know what it’s really like – working with men that think a sentence is six f’s and a vowel.  During one crazy week I expended more effort talking with my crew’s parole officers, investigating cops, and insurance agents just so I could keep enough workers on the project.  The pleasantries at home rarely made appearances on the job site and on many occasions’ men rebutted my ‘please’ and ‘thank you’ with the six f’s opting to leave out the vowel.   I was proud that being exposed to this daily dose of foul, lewd and crude language did not influence me to do the same.  I liked to think that somehow I had come out of it unscathed and had let my light shine with an impact that would illuminate for many years to come.  Recently, something happened at home that put a light on the fact that I had indeed been affected, but pride had blinded me in seeing it.
My wife approached me asking why I was being mean to her and the kids.  My response was “I’m not mean.  You do not know what mean is.  If only you knew what the real world was like.” I started thinking and praying about what she said and realized days later that I had unknowingly let the ‘beast’ into my home.  Oh, I let him in alright and my pride had opened the door.  It was easy to see the beast out in the field, because of his loud fiery talk.  But I had unwittingly overlooked the fact that even though I had removed his mouth, the beast’s body had come home with me.
I was right that my family did not know what real meanness was, as it was practiced out in the world, but I was wrong to think that they should experience even a lighter dose of it in order to understand me.  I had allowed myself to lower my standards for how I communicated, justifying my conduct because it was still much kinder than what was practiced at work.  My job was to love and protect my family and by bringing home habits picked up at work, I was doing neither poorly.
In a way, this is a wake-up call for me.  It is a reminder that even though I had used ear protection to protect from picking up the verbal garbage of the world, I had neglected to guard myself from the silent monsters.  Just like the worker that dons the hazmat suit to protect himself from threats unseen, I needed to put on my protective suit to ensure that none of the beast comes home.



Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Clutter in My Head

Not my office of course


I was going over the list of books that I have recently read.  It all started the other night when I sat at my computer and became overwhelmed with all the clutter in my head.  I have so many stories and thoughts that I have wanted to write for years, but I struggled with the clarity I needed to bring them out. In recent months, I feel God has been allowing me to think more clearly. So, to calm the raging storm of my thoughts I proceeded to mentally check the books off in my head. 
The Code of Ethics by H.B. Monjar, published in 1938, was a great find on character traits.  The Case For Christ by Lee Strobel, rang true with predictable evidence, but nothing I thought new.  The Seduction of Our Children by Neil T. Anderson & Steve Russo, discussed how we fathers are to protect kids from satanism, new age and the occult; a heavy subject with an emphasis on heavy.  God Owns My Business by Stanley Tam, was a wonderful read on how I as a man, can honor God in the work place. Approaching Hoofbeats by Billy Graham, is a warning to the church that our time here on earth is soon to end.  Not a very popular message these days, but one that has to be told.  How to Understand and Influence Children by Clyde M. Narramore, published in 1957, I would recommend this book to all dads, but I’m sure it would be hard to find.  Written by Charles J. Clarke, London, in 1947, Courtship, gives a biblical view on the fathers responsibility on guiding their children through the courtship process.  A must read for any dads looking to protect their children from our cultural practice of dating and finding a future spouse.
All of these fall far short of reading from the Bible, of course, but I find that what the writers have captured reinforces the fact that many of us fathers are like-minded and that the Holy Spirit is alive and well.  How else can it be, that when we are able see through the clutter of our minds, so many of us are thinking the same thing?

Monday, January 24, 2011

Nothing



     I know about survival, when the angry seas ripped the masts and riggings from my boats and I floundered to pending doom.  I know about rage, when it devoured me and I came to an inch from being destroyed.  I know about choices, when many showed me foolish and one brought me hope.  I know about grace and love, when I could no longer lift my head and He still loved me.  I know about forgiveness, when He came and took it all away. I know about wisdom, when she speaks to me softly and I find peace in her comfort.  And in the things that I once knew, I gladly let fade away, for I now know I knew nothing and nothing wasn’t worth keeping.

Hope

Every trade has its tools and tricks to accomplish the tasks at hand.  An experienced carpenter may use a tic stick to transfer the lines of a trim or side wall profile onto a new sheet of plywood.  A plumber may pull out a thin braided wire with a finger loop at each end, to cut a plastic pipe that is in a tight spot.  Loggers wear steel tipped boots to protect their feet, and know how to handle a bell loader safely.
            God had equipped every parent with the tools and tricks of the trade to accomplish their tasks with raising godly children.  No Dr. Spock or government intervention required.  Just as a carpenter or a plumber may botch a job and learn from their mistakes, a parent can learn from theirs and complete the ‘project’ of raising effective godly young people.  When parents screw up with kids as a carpenter sometimes does with a task, it does not mean that the project is doomed; it may be that just a little remodel needs to take place.  When parents use God’s word as a blueprint to raising godly children, they are in fact, just like a master tradesman, using the best tools and tricks of the trade par none.
            Where we run into trouble with our children, it usually involves hypocrisies ‘do as I say, not what I do’ issues.  Or in moments of blindness, weakness, neglect or distraction we allow in different degrees ungodly cultural habits or practices to come into our home.  When we wake up to the fact that this has happened, we sometimes are passive or tolerant in allowing them to stay.  It is not till we see negative adverse effects in our children that we may try to remedy our mistake.  And at times when we are tired and weak, we may not even try because we all know how hard it is to catch a cat that has been let out of the bag.
            Parenting is not easy, especially when you are holding the standards of godly parents raising godly children in these times.  I have found that raising teenagers is by far more difficult for me than raising several children still in diapers.  The demand for my services as a priest, provider, protector, and prophet are at an all time high when I have teenagers in the house.  Although it is hard at times for me to be the father that God has called me to be, it is not impossible.  He says in Deuteronomy 11:19 that we are to “Teach (God’s precepts) to your children, talking about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.”  Ephesians 6:4 instructs fathers to “…not exasperate your children; instead bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.” Proverbs 22:6 tells us to “Train a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it.” There is no crapshoot or chance that has been added to this endeavor.  It is written that when we do these things our children will not depart from His ways.  This gives me as a father, hope.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Battle Yourself


If there is any time in history that you could make a moral observation on mankind, why not now?  Are you a believer?  Or are you a skeptic?  Are you one of those that are content to watch the parade go by, or are you not happy unless you are in the parade?  At no other time has there been the need for your ability to think.  For in a world that teaches you to make a connection to your feelings, it may bring you to a place of hating what is good.  For in a day when darkness prevails, good become evil and evil good.
              The prevailing political left of today teaches that you are to hate those who love guns, hunting, large families and conservatism.  They say that if you are a champion of any of these, it must be that you are less intelligent. I believe that conservative values lead to goodness.  There is a strong belief in God, a respect of country and a desire to be productive.
            Phony issues distract from moral issues.  Your ability to think limits distractions, giving your focus on those things that matter most, more effective influence.  When goodness spends her time with issues that don’t matter, those who would distract her have won.
            The most important thing for goodness to prevail is to battle your feelings.  Your mind has to be the seat of morals, not your heart.  To achieve good values, before everything else, battle yourself.  They do not teach this now.  The post WWII generation said to themselves, “We must give our children what we never had” when they should have gave their kids what they ‘did’ have.  Love of God and country, and a commitment for ‘service to others.’  Do you battle yourself?  The Bible teaches that we do.  To battle our sinful nature – we are sinners.  The world teaches that you battle everything else – based on your feelings.  Don’t trust your heart!  It is exceedingly deceitful and can not be trusted.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

The Trapper - Part II



On the morning of my fourth day my focus turned to trapping.  I had prepared all my traps by dipping them in a drum of boiling water to remove any human smell and completing the process by dipping them in melted bees wax to seal in any steel or rubber smells.  Marten are inquisitive creatures and are considered to be fairly easy to catch, but this dipping process had greatly increased my success in previous trapping endeavors. Land Otter are a completely different story.  They have a well-developed sense of smell and very acute hearing.  The first time I went after Land Otter with traps it took me four months to catch one.  In my frustration I started writing down everything I did in order to find out what I was doing wrong.  It turned out that when I came and went from where the traps were set or being checked, I was not entering and exiting the area the same way.  A single path was much more manageable to limit the human scent left behind.  Also, I started wearing de-scented gloves, boots and leggings and touched nothing other than what was absolutely necessary. The slightest brush of my cloths on a branch or a bush caused the otter to leave the area for months.  Patience was key and also, the observation of any fresh otter activity in the area.  Their range was as great as 100 square miles and they re-visited elaborate tunnels and feeding dens by way of developed well-defined trails.  On Yakobi and the surrounding islands the trails were usually fairly short, so I learned to look for water slides where they entered and exited the salt water. I think it was the intelligence and the playfulness of the Land Otter that greatly influenced why I would later lose some of my appetite for trapping.  
I did not and do not now think of myself as an accomplished trapper.  More often than not, I gained pleasure in observing animals while they went about their business.  I didn’t even consider harming them in the hours that I lay hidden, watching their every move.  From Brown Bear and Deer, to the smallest Marten and Mink, they most often did not come to harm by my hand on the frequent occasions I observed them in the Alaskan wilderness.
I loved watching marten and their adventurous curiosity.  They would run and poke and sniff along a mossy covered embankment overlooking a creek or ravine below.  A favorite place of mine to set a trap was where a tree trunk grew off this drop off and extended out and up, which created a perfect table to place the trap.  A piece of herring was placed in a gap I made with a small hatchet, in the bark above the trap so that the marten would have to step across it to get to the bait.  The anchor chain ring was nailed with a fence nail on the bottom side of the tree.  In this way the trapped animal would fall off the table and hang in mid air below the tree.  Without leverage it was very difficult to get out of the trap.  I decided to use this method for the first few strings and by sundown I completed a string of traps at the head of Baker Bay, Pinta Bay and Didrickson Bay to the south. 
As I opened up the motor on the skiff and headed back to base camp to the north, I marveled at the explosion of colors dancing across the western sky.  “Yeah God!”  I exclaimed, as I reluctantly pulled my gaze from the sunset to the darkening waters ahead of me.  The darkness from the forest spread relentlessly out across Portlock Harbor, reminding me of another time when my beautiful world came crashing in.

The Trapper


The 16 foot skiff was loaded with all my provisions as I headed out Lisianski Straights toward the open ocean.  Not yet 20, I was on my way to a remote uninhabited series of water ways given such names as you most likely would hear in other parts.  Intriguing and beautiful bays, coves and harbors with names like Canoe Passage, Mirror Harbor, Pinta Bay, Portlock Harbor, Black Bay and Surveyor Passage, to name a few.  
A 55 gallon drum of fuel for the outboard sat in the bow and duffle bags of camp gear filled the rest of the skiff.  I sat on top two of these in the stern, gripping the steering arm of the outboard motor.  Looking forward out across the bow, I could see that I was approaching Stag Bay. 
The 30 horse outboard motor could push the skiff up over 35 miles per hour if the skiff was empty, but with it loaded as it was now, I was not making 10.  The mountains, bays and beaches slipped by slowly, giving me plenty of time to think about the local area and all I had read about it.  Being a rich land of timber, fish, wildlife and minerals, many had come to explore, harvest and exploit it.  As Stag Bay slid by on my left to the south, I remembered reading that Lieutenant Lisianski ‘s men of the Russian Imperial Navy had made an exploratory mining shaft on the west side of the bay - just one location of many where he had looked for gold. A year earlier during a hunting trip, I had stumbled across the opening of this mine. The moss grew heavy around its opening and when I slowly crouched and entered into the dark shaft, I could see the white quartz veins running along its walls.  The shaft ended about 30 feet back into the side of the mountain.
In preparing for this expedition I had purchased an assortment of traps totaling a hundred and twenty.  I had come up with this number because it would take a full day to check them if I set them all.  I did not want to let animals be trapped for more than a day for many reasons.  There were 25 large 24 inch conibear traps I would use for Land Otter. This trap has two metal rectangles, opened like jaws, with a trigger on one side. The conibear is designed to have bait placed on the trigger to lure the animal's head into the trap, but I had minimal success with this method.  I would set the hoop in a tunnel or track that the animal would be entering as it tried to get at herring that I had placed several feet beyond. When the trap triggers, the rectangles quickly close together like a large mouse trap, almost always causing death to the trapped animal. These traps are most often used by trappers and pest control companies working in and around populated areas. Their sizes range widely from the size of a mouse trap to a couple feet across for bears. I had not heard of anyone using this type of trap on a brown bear, which were plentiful in this area and I had no intention to do so. 
The majority of my traps were 6 inch leghold traps to be used to capture Martin.  The padded leghold trap is similar to the steel jaw leghold trap. The difference is a layer of rubber around the edges of the jaws of the trap. This is to cause less damage to the animal after they set it off.  I wanted to use these to preserve the trapped animal's fur and I liked the fact that it was less painful on the animal. 
I fully acknowledge that there is controversy over the use of any kind of trap to harvest or kill an animal and some people even have a problem with any method of taking them for the use of their fur or meat.  To this I would respond that for those who live in the cities, it would be reasonable to think that they could refrain from using fur or consuming wild game, but for those of us who live in remote and/or cold places the subsistence of these becomes necessary to survive.
Marten found in Alaska are part of the American marten and are also known as the pine marten or American sable.  They belong to the weasel family and are closely related to fisher and mink. Marten pelts vary in color from a dark brown to blond, yet the most distinctive characteristics are an orange or buff throat patch and pronounced ears.  When visiting the Seattle Fur Exchange, I learned from them that the dark brown marten pelts with long guard hairs would bring the highest price.
Any time you head out in a large vessel into the open ocean, it can be intimidating, but in a small skiff it can be downright scary.  Being loaded as I was, I had checked the weather forecast prior to leaving the village of Pelican, to make sure the ocean swell was calm enough for me to get out the entry of Lisianski Straights.  I had learned that I could not trust weather forecasts, especially in areas where I encountered converging factors of wind, waves, tide and rocks.  So as I made my way past Porcupine Island passing the last rocks to the south, my eyes searched for any signs to indicate I should turn around and wait for better conditions.  It looked safe enough so I throttled up and headed south along the coast. 
The wind was calm and the sun broke through the few clouds to give the ocean depths a translucent green.  Looking to the north, up the Coast of Yakobi Island and then to the south along Chichagof Island, the sea sparkled a vivid blue.  The mountains dressed in the greens of Alaskan Yellow Cedar, Hemlock, Spruce and Doug Fur, rose up out of the ocean to dance with the heavens.  I knew not any other country as beautiful as this.
False Pass faced North-West to the ocean and in the way it entered into the top side of Portlock Harbor, even local natives who knew its location would sometimes pass by and not find it.  Much smaller than its name sake 900 miles to the west, I could throw a rock from one side to the other at its narrowest.  If I could get through the pass it would shave off 30 minutes more of being out in the open ocean.  To enter it required my skiff to pass over a sandbar covered by just 10 feet of water at low tide. This part of the coast had a range of tidal movement from a few feet on a holdover to over 21 feet on an extremely high winter tide.  Suffice to say that if the swell, tide and wind are not cooperating, the entry is likely to be blocked by breakers.  It is much more difficult to determine the danger of potential breaking waves going with them than going into them.  There are many such perilous breaks and hidey-holes in South-East Alaska’s coast line - better left to the local mariners who have sometimes spent years studying them.  The pass appeared to be clear of white water so I pointed the bow of the skiff to the center of the entry and made my way safely through into Baker Cove.
The cove stood at the base of Baker Mountain where my brother Don, a friend and I had hunted deer in the past.  Hidden from the rest of Portlock Harbor, I had chosen this landfall to be where I would set up my base camp.  The clearing just off of the beach was fairly level and I proceed to unload the skiff.  A barrel rack was cut out of a small tree I dropped with a chain saw.  I then rolled the fuel barrel up the makeshift ramp and placed it on the rack with the spout facing down, in order to easily fill small fuel tanks for the outboard.  Working into the dark, I made a cooking table with a canopy roof and set up a temporary dome tent that I would use for my sleeping quarters till I could build a lean-to out of logs. In the glow of the fire, I looked around the clearing and into the dark forest and smiled at all that was accomplished this first day.
Morning came early and I did not hesitate to crawl out of my sleeping bag and get ready for the day.  It was dark, but with a hint of light seeping through the canopy high above.  The cold air was sharp and gripping as I coaxed the fire back to life. 
As I stood with my backside to the fire eating some fried diced up potatoes, I fell into deep thought.  I was continuing to live as I had read and dreamed about as a young boy.  Stories of mountain men heading off into the hills never to be seen or heard from again, well, I didn’t care for the ‘never to be seen or heard from again’, but the ‘heading off into the hills’ part was pure entertaining to think about.  Back in September I had started trapping in Soap Stone Cove and around Column Point, using my brothers fishing boat as a base camp, but now it was well into November and I was entering a new more dangerous chapter in my life.  “You had better watch yourself this time” I muttered to myself, putting emphasis on the ‘this time’.  No snow had fallen yet, but I knew it was coming and I had better be ready.

On a hunting trip up Yakobi Island’s Grass Mountain when I was 17, my brother and I were caught in a late summer storm that brought an ice rain that cut to the bone.  Wearing jeans, tennis shoes and a t-shirt I had dressed for a warm summer day that never materialized.  After Don and I separated at the beach that morning, to ascend the mountain up different trails, I had shot a deer an hour later up in the grasses above tree line. Sixteen hundred feet above the beach, where the forests faded and the yellow grass began, I had packed the deer down to, in a increasingly heavier down pour.  The cold rain robbed me of my energy and the lack of my ability to think clearly no longer concerned me.  As I sat on a moss covered log in the heavy rain resting, I saw movement out of the corner of my eye and turned to see a large buck 20 yards away staring at me.  Without thinking I raised my rifle with the first deer still on my back and shot it. Field dressed minutes later, I dragged it over to the main trail so it would be easy to find upon my return.  The trip down the mountain in the driving rain was exhausting enough without carrying a deer on your back, but I eventually made it down to the beach to where the boat was anchored just off shore.  When I broke out of the forest onto the grass covered flats I was glad to see Don.  He had been down for over an hour and was mostly dry standing there in front of a large bon fire.  I saw two large bucks lying on the beach next to the skiff and turned toward him asking “How..?”  “I shot the first one just after I exited the tree line and was down to the beach by ten o’clock” he explained.  “Seeing I had most the day ahead of me I decided to take a quick hike back up to tree line” and with a smile he continued “As soon as I reached the grass the second buck was standing right there.”      
Don was not happy to hear I still had a deer up the mountain as it would be dark soon.  He could see I was in no condition to pack another deer down the trail, but demanded that I go with him to help locate the buck.  Hypothermia had its claws in me so by the time we located my second deer and started back down the trail in the dark, Don had to kick me out of every puddle of water we passed.  The water seemed to be extremely warm to me, but it was not.  How Don was able to carry a buck on his back, navigate and drag my hide down that mountain in the dark is still a mystery to me.  After managing to eat some hot soup and falling into a warm bunk on the boat I slept continuously for twenty-two hours. I do not remember getting into the skiff and onto the boat, so Don must have packed all four deer and myself from the beach into the skiff and onto the boat.  The bruises where Don kicked me lingered on my body for weeks, but I was grateful.


            I spent the next two days working on completing the setup of my camp and scoping out good routes for my trap lines. The log lean-to was to protect the dome tent from being crushed by snow.  The islands in this area received annual rainfall of more than 120 inches and it could snow much more than the 140 inches it averaged in one winter.  If you were not ready for it, the accumulation of snow could be quite a problem.  By the end of the third day I felt the base camp was ready to support me for the duration of the winter.  Like a sleeping giant Alaska’s weather held its fury from me and I slept that night in a state of naivety and bliss.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Column Mountain


I preferred hunting on the south side of Yakobi Island on a mountain we nicknamed Meat Mountain, because of the dozens of deer that were harvested off of it.  The grass covered ridges and valleys that made up the central bowl of the mountain were the perfect place for the Sitka black tail deer to thrive.  The abundant food and remote location gave the deer population the conditions to also reach large sizes unheard of in other parts.  My brothers, friends and I took so many deer off this mountain over the years that we started to pride ourselves as game managers of sorts.  If we saw any indication that the deer were suffering in numbers by our hunting efforts, we would hunt elsewhere to give them time to replenish.  I did the same thing when I trapped in the winter months.  I would only trap in an area for a few weeks before moving on.  In this way the animals were never in any danger of being over harvested and could easily repopulate the area.  In fact, fish and game departments around the world have found that by removing the cycle of either too large or too small of a population of fish and game, they are sustained at a higher and healthier number than if they are left alone.  Many popular studies suggest that we should leave wildlife alone in order that the cycles of life return to their natural state, but I have observed the opposite results.  When we manage and harvest both fish and game in a healthy active role, the populations of those species are sustained at historical highs.  Having made several hunts up Meat Mountain in recent weeks, it was decided that we would hunt somewhere else.
A few days later, in a cove of rocks facing Cross Sound and the open ocean, I paddled toward shore upon a glassy sea.  With an early start, I was anticipating a day of hunting for deer on Column Point.  The kelp beds moved lazily to and thro to the beat of the swell and as I neared shore, I could make out the mouth of the small stream I was about to enter.  Timing my entry I paddled hard on a swell to ride it up into the creek and jumped out of the dingy as it came in contact with the gravel bottom.  Grabbing a rope tied to the dingy, I pulled it farther up the creek to a place where I could tie the rope to an alder bush.  Pulling my backpack and rifle from the small row boat I turned and entered into the forest.  Moments before on the beach I could see in the dim morning light, but the forest did not yield its darkness easily.  I walked slowing up a trail away from the beach, making my way around fallen moss covered trees and random exposed rock.  The trail was wide and deep indicating that it was used frequently by many kinds of animals.  I broke out from beneath the old growth trees and onto a table top of muskeg 20 minutes later, where I could now see clearly for a hundred yards up the trail.  Stopping and looking up at the sky, I could not see any clouds and the last few stars were quickly fading away.  “Alright” I softly said as I looked across the clearing toward the steep mountain looming above, “It is going to be a nice day.”
Column Mountain lived up to its name, rising up out of the ocean to reach over 2300 feet, less than half a mile from the beach.  The trails from the beach started out wide and easy, but soon deteriorated into narrow difficult tracks that most often faded away.  It had taken me a couple hikes up this mountain to learn the easiest way up and believe me, nothing was easy about it.  I was soon climbing using my hands to pull myself up on a section of trail that went vertical for several hundred feet.  I could understand a goat using this trail, but by all the fresh sign it was clearly a deer trail.  Making my way past the last of the steep section of trail, I entered into a brush covered tunnel that was used by brown bear.  I paused and listened as I did not want to surprise or be surprised by any of the giants that might be near. Stepping through and out into the sun filled clearing I surveyed the beauty of a mountain meadow spread out before me and I stood on the mountain looking down from where I had come. The peaks and the valleys that once looked impossible now became insignificant.
     My gaze upon the majestic land and sea was interrupted by movement registering out of the corner of my eye.  Standing still and turning my head slowly to the right, I was shocked with the sight of a large buck not 10 feet away.  It had its back to me with its head buried in a bush feeding on the tender leaves and its large antlers framed the opening.  I had picked up on its black and brown tail flickering and now realized just how close I was.  I reached for my knife, for my first thought was to jump on it. Remembering stories about what a buck can do to you with its horns, I thought better of it and slowly backed away.  When I had retreated 5 yards, I raised my rifle and whistled softly.  The deer jumped several feet in the air and took off across the meadow.  When it was far enough away that I could see something larger than an eyeball in the scope, I shot it. 
     Many times over the years I have thought about what would have happened if I had jumped on it.  When Wisdom came calling in my youth, I seldom listened to her, but in this case we most likely agreed with my choice.